lisa pizza

apparently people are coming back to dreamwidth? so uh, i feel like i should post an update since i abruptly stopped and i don't want that to be at the top of my page.

i've been in my new job since september, my team is amazing and welcomed me with open arms and i'm so so happy.

i'm still in therapy, and both my therapist and my pcp have said that i'm completely different than i was in august, when i was crying daily and couldn't get out of bed for days at a time and just. generally was In A Bad Place.

we lowered the dose on my anti-anxiety meds last month and i'm hoping in a month or two we can try lowering my antidepressants. birth control was too annoying so i stopped taking it, and i think the calcium contributed to my hands getting a little fucked up again so i stopped taking that too.

my hair is tragically brown again but that's cos my mom requested it be brown for christmas. next year i'm going back to pink and i think getting an undercut.

i've gone back to jersey several times and video chat with my parents and olivia every couple of weeks. a couple of calls ago she grabbed the phone from my mom so she could give me a hug and i just about died. i'm super excited to spend christmas with her.

so yeah. i'm doing much better. i'm not stopping therapy anytime soon. i'm making a conscious effort to stay lowkey at work and not take on extra stuff for at least a year. i'm still working on my pmp. if i continue to struggle with focusing on the classes for it, my therapist is sending me for neuropsych testing cos she thinks i have ADD and that meds will help, but we'll cross that bridge when we get to it.